My Brilliant Butterfly

Those shimmering wings unfurl,

You are now ready to fly!

So confident, so fearless, so sure …

And I’m rooted with sudden fear,

As you waltz towards the door!

My mind takes a journey, back,

To that wonderful Wednesday,

When the beautiful angel called you,

Was sent to us – the answer to our prayer!

The beautiful eyes, so full of trust,

The tiny hand, curled around my finger!

The dainty feet, that kicked with energy bursts!

The sunshiny unrestrained smile,

That always made me want to linger!

Still remember your first day of school,

How you didn’t want to let my hand go!

You kept peeking out the window –

To see if I was still there – thus reassured!

The dolls, the friends, the hurts, the joys,

The sharing of troubles, the growing out of toys!

Oh! The painful and awkward phases –

The brilliant butterfly finally emerging from the chrysalis!

We stand, the parents proud, today,

Happy, tearful, anxious, yet sure -

Our vibrant and lively butterfly –

Is ready to face the world and find her way!

My hand is doing the clinging now –

Like that little hand, on that long gone day!

You’re my little girl, though all grown –

A mother’s heart wants you to stay!

This radiant beauty standing here –

Dazzling with her radiant smile –

Just waiting to fly and test her wings,

Will always be, at least for me

The little girl that held my hand –

Who needed me for everything!

Go! My magnificent butterfly –

Go out there and rule the world!

But if ever there’s loneliness inside –

And you need love and a hand to hold,

Come home and shed those precious pretty pearls –

For, to a mother’s heart you’ll always be a little girl!

Can I be ....

You see, I want to be,

The pretty flower that dances in the breeze –

That catches your eye and makes you smile,

When the day is dark; the walk, long and wearying!

The smile that is alive … without guile!

The bright and shiny ray of the sun,

That touches you and warms you!

When you’re feeling chilled and cold –

Surrounds you and in a hug enfolds!

The sparkling and the glittering star,

That twinkles and winks from the sky,

Inspiring, even in the deepest darkest night –

There is a light at the end … even though a little far!

The naughty breeze that ruffles your hair,

Teasing you, playing and enjoying with you,

The lighter times, the softer hues!

Relaxing and restful – free from the day’s cares!!

The rain drops that tenderly wash your face,

Wash away the pains, toil and strain!

The soft and gentle snowflakes –

That impress, with pristine beauty attained!

The breathtaking and beautiful view,

The rosy pink and misty dawn –

That brings a promise of a beautiful morn!

The feeling of awe and splendour imbue!

I want to be all that and more for you,

To show – how in your love, I grew -

I wonder if I will ever be able to return-

A wee bit portion of what I have received from you!

Personal Wasteland That Was

A personal wasteland!! Once upon a time ,

Was this beating heart of mine –

A black, unseeing, isolated, barren place,

Just shadows; of illumination, no trace!!

You walked into my life – amazing brilliance,

Though no starburst, no fire crackers, no silver dust!

You entered into my heart,

Asking for nothing – just complete trust!

Memories float around,

Smiles – in the love, new found!!

The shiny place where the hearts visit –

Became our common visiting ground!

My hand in yours,

My fate to yours joined!

My life now yours to call,

Your love to cushion my every fall!

The lush green of emotions that you see,

The total filling of that terrible void -

Its you who filled sparkle in my gloomy world!!

Turning blunt metal to solid gold!!

The Midas touch …. The magic of the clover leaf –

My grief, darkness removed, you’re the sun,

The moon in the darkest night – you’re the one!

The heart, resplendent, filled with love, all unplanned!

Thanks for bringing life to my personal wasteland!!!

Its We -

Felt the warm fingers of the sun,

Play on my face – whispering and caressing,

With a special smile, to you, I turn,

Opening my eyes, to see my dream with open eyes!!

I see you and my heart, oh my heart, it soars high!

You enfold me in your warm embrace,

The worries and troubles just seem to fade!

The love that sparkles and shines on your face,

The total trust in your deep, piercing and profound gaze,

Looks into my soul - makes doubts vanish to some unknown place!

I shut my eyes again and I gather all my happiness,

I smile a special smile to myself and thank all the powers that be!

I wonder if it’s possible to be any happier or feel more serenity!!

Am replete in the shimmering flood of feelings you give me –

Every time you remind me that it’s not you and I …. Its ‘We’!!!

Euthanasia

Life flipped today to a page,

Long lost in the album of life,

Has it really been an age?

Where have all the years taken flight?

Wasn’t too long back when ..

We held hands and hugged the other tight –

Wasn’t too long when love’s sun,

Had shone on us with its brilliant light!!

And then the clouds of reality came,

Gone was the sparkle ; gone the glisten!

The heart felt the searing hot pain,

The eyes rained tears – all in vain!

Today again you walked into my life,

And strange it seemed to see you here!!

All the feelings my heart tried to compile,

Was it confusion or was it fear?

Then I looked at my life today,

And it was like the mist cleared!

My love, my life, my way was here,

Right beside me for all these years!!

True love is he, I know for sure,

He stood by me when no one would!

He held my hand and reality we endured!

He’s my today and solid he stood!!

Looked back to the page life had reopened,

A sad smile was all I could offer as a token!

And my eyes and heart sought the special smile,

That was true and my very life!

I knew not how much more,

It could get scarier and crazier,

All I felt - that the love that was, at last,

Had found peaceful euthanasia!

My Treasure -

A knowing smile is reflected in my eyes,

I’m thinking of you and all our times,

The beauty of those times is a joy forever –

A pleasure, a gift, a blessing and a treasure!!

With you I dance this ethereal dance,

With you my heart leaps and prances,

I live each day for that one single glance –

I soak all your smallest nuances!!!

My being so full of your love and you –

My soul brimming and overflowing –

We didn’t realise ….. did we?

How our love abound and grew!!

Of azure blue skies and shiny stars –

Of exchanging secrets, those endless hours,

Of twinkling eyes and holding hands,

Of love’s interwoven gold and silver strands!!

For all the things you gave to me,

For all the dreams that you helped me achieve!

For all the times you’ve stood besides,

For all the love and all the pride,

Thank you for always being there to guide!!

How is it that I forget to tell you everyday –

How much I love you and how much you mean –

So let me make amends today and come clean –

Let me tell you that I am alive because of your smiling ways –

And you are what I need till the end of my days!

Stand by me and hold my hand

You don’t always have to understand me –
You don’t always have to wipe my tears –
You don’t always have to talk of trust, my dear –
Sometimes I just want to feel your warmth near!!

You don’t always have to bring me flowers –
You don’t have to capture towers –
You don’t always have to come bearing gifts –
Sometimes my heart just wants a loving lift!!

You don’t always have to keep a smiling face –
You don’t always have to wipe all sorrow’s traces –
You don’t always have to be the stronger one –
Sometimes I want to tie the bow for you with love’s laces!!

Why do you always have to be so perfect ..
Why can’t you be like me at times and fret!
Why can’t we be brave and face threats together ….
Do you think I’m as fluffy as a feather?

You don’t have to fight my battles for me –
You don’t have to slay any dragons and set me free -
You don’t have to be The Mr. Right –
You just have to be right for me!

What , my love, I’m trying to say,
In my roundabout and twisted way -
Is only that -
For me to feel perfect, beautiful, loved and grand -
All you have to do is ….
Stand by me and hold my hand!!

Immortal Ocean

Life ... so like a river - it begins with gurgles and delight
Moves along growing, changing and collecting -
Some memories .... some people ... on its onward plight ...
Some lives ... some dreams ..... with its flow effecting!!!

On and on it flows – the river, rumbling and splashing,
Along the path it collects debris … some weeds …
We collect memories and ….. some greeds.
Some times its serene sometimes troubled waters show,
So akin to life is the continuous and senseless flow.

At times a waterfall … it falls but doesn’t break –
Those risks and chances are what we take ….
We can’t break … we have to go on … –
We learn from our mistakes …
As to the ocean we make our way!!

Finally the river meets the ocean …
The journey over - the final destination!!
Our soul reaches its ocean .. Our life a mere token –
So many souls in his keeping …..
He keeps us safe …. Our immortal ocean!!

Visited Grounds

You know we’ve been here before –
You and I - in such a time … in this place …
Me – trying to make you focus on what I say –
But you just turn away your face!!!

No, ofcourse not ! Not for a minute do I doubt your love –
I know you love me endlessly …
Why else would I be here today ….
With promises of forever and eternity!!!

But now and again we visit this place –
Where I need to know –
And you – You blank out without a trace …
And I can't ever make up my mind,
to resolve the issues or let go ….

And then I think of all the times we smiled together –
Of all the times we held hands and took a walk –
And the answer seems clear then –
Just let things be … I know our hearts will talk!!

Woman - a mystery loved

Woman a mystery u can never decipher -

You can’t understand so u criticize her!!!

She loves u unconditionally,

But when she asks the same in return -

You ridicule brutally -

And she receives insults and scorn???

Oh man … how frail is your ego …

Why the need to explain … why not just explore –

She’s a series of moods … an exotic garland of feelings –

She’ll give u a reason for living … give life a meaning ..

Why not just let her be and not change her ways –

Why not admire her and give her some praise?

Why not trust her and know she cares –

Why not be her partner and soul mate –

Why try to be one notch ahead –

Why not just be tied in her beautiful threads!!!

We’re two parts of the same little puzzle –

A woman and a man …. The union so subtle –

You the strength … she the support –

A sparkling chain of feelings binds both!!!

We’re powerful together but why can’t we ever see ….

The shared dreams of togetherness and beauty!!

Lost in each other we can find the world –

Why not let ourselves free and enjoy eternity!!

Hold my hand – walk by my side –

Not a step ahead … not a step behind –

Lets walk life’s road leaning on one another –

Lets break the society’s shackles and walk into forever!

The tears I cry … and the hurt that u feel …

The truth that I search … the burdens u bear …

Our lives a rhythm on destiny’s wheel –

Your trust and faith in me clinches the deal!!

I will give u my all today and tomorrow –

I will walk miles with you in your sorrow –

Celebrate you joys and be happy for you –

I’ll be there forever with my love so true -

But you have to promise me this in return –

You will not think me less or my feelings spurn

I am your equal … your other half .. god made me so –

Open your heart and love me … you want to .. you know !!!

Hope

Far away a glimmer of light -
Makes me walk another mile ...
The path is rough ... an inky blackness ....
A piece of rainbow .... a promise of bliss!!!
A shiny moment beckons further ...
Darker clouds begin to gather -
The soul is tired of empty platitudes ...
Lips move but I haven't got a clue.
Feels like nothing ever was true!!!
Lost and wary in the sands and dunes -
Far away a glimmer of light -
Pushes again to end the plight -
No one close - no one hears -
No one it seems to answer prayers!
Endless road no one in sight -
All I follow - that glimmer of light!
A flickering flame in the distant horizon ..
I rise from the dust - let go of the past!
Feel the soul empty all the poison ....
Break the shackles .... moving quickly ... moving fast ...
Chains still hold me .... binding me tight ....
What makes me wade ? That glimmer of light!!!
The glimmer is what inspires to break the chains and rope ....
The piece of rainbow, the flickering flame , the glimmer of light ... is eternal hope!!

Take the chance

Wanting ... waiting .... thinking ..... pondering ...

Contemplating ... evaluating .. wishing ... wondering!!!

What is and what isnt!

It might have happened but now will never be known!

Life goes on but we dont forget the unturned stone!!

What could have been and whatever wont ..

It could have been but now its not ....

Wanted it to be - but did naught!!

My unanswered question in face of destiny's answers!!!

All because the heart's fear of taking chances!

Decided to wait instead of taking the plunge -

Thought it would happen if it had to!!

Blind belief in fate's outcome ....

Today still waiting .... wanting to know the truth!!

Isn't it better to take the chance -

Than forever let the question haunt!

The woman in the mirror

The morning dull - the sky is grey,

A beginning to another withered day!!!

I see a woman in the mirror -

Do i know her ... i do recognize her!

She used to be happy and full of cheer,

Now the lips droop and eyes are full of despair!

Who is it .... do i know you?

I'm scared the answer is going to be yes ....

Afraid and scared to accept the truth -

To see and believe what is left of me - a waste!!

Who stands there in the battered frame?

I answer to ther very same name ...

How have i managed to do this?

I'm breathing but i do not live!!

When did it happen .... when did the burdens get so heavy?

When did i turn into this woman so dreary?

Where is the sparkle ... the twinkle ... the shine ...

When was the laughter and joy replaced by this monotonous whine?

Where i wonder is the will to live ....

I know i still have a lot to give!!

Who has done this to me -

Why do i feel tired and old?

It must have been me , if truth be told ...

No one has the power to torture another soul!!

I will find the courage to be -

I will turn into 'me' again -

All lives deal with misery here -

Why should I be the only one to complain!!

I will stand up - live and smile again -

The sun has just risen - its a bright and sunny day!!!

Neend kaisi? / Ah! Sleep?

Meri meethi baatein tujhe sone dengi nahin
Baaton mein aake neend kaisi -

Rangeen sitare tumko aur jaga denge
Sitaron ko dekhte neend kaisi -

Main paas baithi to meri khushboo hosh udaegi
Hosh khoke neend kaisi -

Sapne khuli aankhon se dekho
Sapnon ke liye neend kaisi-

Kavita khud banjayegi humse
Kavita ke liye neend kaisi-

Phoolon ki kahani baagon mein hogi
Baagone mein jaake neend kaisi-

Pyar ka tarana hum dono ka hoga
Hum dono ke beech mein neend kaisi -

Tum aur main aur tanhai -
Itne shor mein neend kaisi :)

The best gift one could ever receive .... a version offered by a very special friend!! This is the best compliment that anyone could have given .... am humbled!!!

Ah! Sleep?

My sweet nothings shall not let you sleep-
Sweetly smothered by them, shall you sleep?

The sight of bright stars shall keep you awake
Looking upon them, how can you sleep?

Sitting close to me, my fragrance shall fill your senses;
Losing your sense, how shall you sleep!

Dream on, eyes, wide open-
For then, why sleep, to dream?

When we become, in our togetherness, sheer poetry
Shall we sleep, for creating poetry?

Flowers whisper their lore enticingly in gardens-
Sleep shall not be found in gardens too!

When we become the rhythm and music of love
Where shall sleep then find a place, between us?

You and I in sheer isolation-
Sleep? In this pandemonium of beautiful silence?

My heart's desire

Can you set afire my heart’s desires?
Can you see all those dreams for which it aspires?
Do you think its important that I don’t see things through logic?
My heart’s desires are natural – spontaneous and almost always frolics!

Do you think its stupid to feel things so intensely?
My heart’s desires, I know, always want things completely!
Do you think I’m being demanding, selfish and self-centred?
If my heart desires equal returns from any relations I entered?

Do you think its madness and absolute insanity?
To try and lose my grip on painful reality?
Do you think its idiotic, crazy and nonsensical,
To wish that life be merry, joyful, happy and musical!!

Do you think its fantastical, hopeless and impossible,
To wish for my life’s one and only dream to be plausible?
Do you think its really absurd, wishful and foolish of me,
To refuse to acknowledge things that my heart doesn’t want to see?

Do you think I put the blame on others?
When I try to explain away something that bothers?
Do you really wish me gone and vanished?
Maybe I’ve suffocated you with affection I lavished!

Do you want me to stop giving all the attention?
Maybe I’m getting to be your life’s major tension!
Do you think you could save me from myself?
Even though I’m too proud to ask for help?

Do you think you could pull me closer to you?
Because my withdrawal is making life miserable and blue!
Do you think I’m being a cling on and a burden?
If so I’ll go and not let your miseries lengthen!

Do you think you could talk to me once again?
And please can it be done without constraints and refrain?
Do you think you could kiss me and hold me?
Or if I repulse you, wouldn’t it be better if you told me?

Do you think my demands are not wanted or appreciated?
Maybe answers for my queries have not yet been created?
Do you think you could answer all these questions?
I know it will require a lot of time and patience …
But could do me this last little favour …..
(And I hope this relation doesn’t leave a bitter flavour)
I’ve lost my smile – could you get it back for me?
Because its said - it was with you it was last seen!!!

My beautiful ways are -

My beautiful ways are ....
Because you see me with loving and adoring eyes ....
They keep you awake - for I lie too,
Waiting for when distance dies ...
When sleep returns and in peace we'll be -
Wrapped in each other forever and eternity -

The burning of your heart and soul -
I will come to you and console -
Your heart and soul shall to me belong -
But wait my love - I shan't be long ...

You see my eyes when you shut yours ...
And feel the beating of my heart..
For I'm imagining your piercing glance -
A fire in my very soul start!

I can feel our breaths mingling ....
I feel each nerve ending tingling ....
My love is consuming me so ...
I feel now i'm ready to let go ...

My heart feels your nearness all the time ...
Your voice the wind brings with every moving chime ...
The sky, it shows me your name in each and every cloud ...
The light of love so brilliant - even the dark night cant shroud!

I'm sure we are true and were meant to be ...
Just like the sky, the sun , the wind and the sea ...
So my love - please dont be afraid
Through loves battles we together shall wade!!
And when the darkness comes around ...
We'l lose ourselves in it, never to be found!!!!

It feels -

It feels so very nice to know,
That a person can love you so!
It feels like the sun there in the sky,
Will never ever let u bow ur head and cry!
And each and every pearl that u ever drop,
Made him more determined to make it stop.

That the moon sailing in the velvet sea-
Brings to you his each and every plea !
It gives a special glow that surrounds ...
That someone waits for ur every sound.

Your smile, your sigh,your heartbeat, your glance ....
Are enough to put him in a trance!
It brings a silver lining to every day-
That someone adores ur every way.

Its a really humbling experience to feel,
That some one - for u bows down and kneels,
To pray that u get all life's happiness,
Makes u feel like a total princess!

Feeling loved is a wonderful feeling!
It almost always leaves u reeling!

Pain

Pain unchecked, unsoothed, unabated,
In each person's life so clearly stated.
Unending, continuous, everflowing and large,
It never ever knocks, it always does barge!
Desperate measures to curb it...in vain...
Life's inseparable partner...definitely pain!
Creation's counterpart destruction is pain...
Anything hurts the eyes they rain .
Our hearts are crazy. . . the emotions they trouble...
Reduce our imaginary castles to rubble!
We think .. we imagine .. we desire .. we dream...
We lose .. we deny .. we cry and we scream!
We try to hide from the dragons before us,
We wish for the fog of ignorance to cocoon us.
And despite all warnings . . . despite all constraints...
Our heart accepts only the picture that itself paints!

Nothing to prove

Have you ever tried to hide ….
What exists there – deep inside?
The pain, the insecurities, the feelings, the terror,
Hold you, torture you and chain you forever!

Its like someone is holding you against your will,
You want to let your feelings show …. yet …. but … still!!!
You cant do it – what will the others think?
That maybe, they’ll just let u go – and gone is the link!!!

You want so desperately for them to understand you …
But when it comes to that, they don’t share your point of view!
Again you try to hide in your shell,
Forget and leave behind what you did tell.

You build a wall around so that people don’t hurt you.
Or is it because you want to stop feelings that are true?
If you don’t feel how will it hurt?
And you’ll be what – a free bird???

Your friends watch you and they say you’re changing,
But how can you help it, they don’t know what you’re feeling!!!
Maybe its because you haven’t told them what you want them to know,
Maybe its because you think your dependence on them will grow?

Maybe you think they just don’t give a damn …
Maybe you think its one big beautiful sham ….
Then you see everything you thought was yours, slipping from your hands,
Its going to be over – no asking – no begging – no taking – no demands!!

Your perfect world all upside down – all around you in shambles,
You try to remake it, thinking its one of life’s gambles …
Its all slipping away …. Too late …. Too soon?
Was it wishful thinking …. A trip to the moon????

Smiles gone, replaced by tears, happiness now replaced by fears,
A relation replaced by broken hearts, something gone – that was built in years!!!
You think again – is the dream worth giving a try again?
Whether it deserves going through the tears and pain?

But you know love is a fool and you’ll again take the chance,
You know you’ll ignore logic and enter the ethereal trance ,,,
Yes, the dream is definitely worth giving a try again,
Because in the end its your heart that counts, not your brain.

Your heart is going to help you survive – fair or unruly weather,
And love will sustain you – be it from a friend, family or lover!
Ultimately when you look at it – love is most important to you –
Its just a feeling that surrounds – you have nothing to prove!