Memories

Has life shrunk so soon? Seasons changing from spring to autumn!
Some pictures etched on my heart and some forgotten!
In a blink of an eye - an eternity .... in the winds all moments blown!
Each memory has a different hue! How ... oh how time has flown!

These special moments I’ve cherished and prized –
On my heart’s window they are poised.
Will I let them fly and add, to my heart, another stone,
Or should I hold on to them, so I’m never alone!

Opened a box today .... of forgotten smiles,
Of broken hearts and separating miles –
Of coffee warm kisses and cinnamon flavours,
The colours and textures, my heart still savours!

Of honey warm dreams kept on hold –
Of red fiery tastes – entrancing and bold!
Of captivating enchantment and violet vivaciousness,
Of soft soothing sunlight and a pocket full of happiness!

My tree now sees autumn – the yellow, red, russet and brown –
My memories, my treasure, my legacy, my crown!
Sunny rays stream cleansing my soul and moments grieved -
I look at a heart full of soft memories and a life well lived!

I see differences, distance - cracks … shards -

I see shadows of broken hearts!

The wintry icy silence settling in –

Frozen, glassy, cold and shivering –

Feelings in pieces, and we pull apart!

I stumble ! What was it that broke my run

Wonder if I dare to see ….

Dreading the sight of what it could be;

I look down and find all the promises undone by me!

Feeling guilty and remorseful …. And so I burn!

I want to reach out and pull you close,

But why don’t I see my arms move?

My heart knows there is something to prove!

I cry inside but my eyes are frozen cold!

Hoping tears melt this ice and forgive things told!

I turn, I see you, still standing there –

I know you’re strong, mine, but so far away!

Did I bring to ‘Us’, so much distrust and fear?

I see your eyes – tortured, sorrowful, yet clear –

And my eyes let go, of what it held tight, a lone tear!

Your promises and words come to me –

I run back to you …. How can I leave?

I hesitantly touch your hand –

And there in your response, lives my dream!

In your eyes with pain, everlasting love is what I see!

In life and death we will part, and future births we cannot perceive,

But here and now I promise love and trust, and they shall last till eternity!

Every time those icy winters descend on us and make us bleed,

Your strength and support are my anchor, your touch my one reality -

I have full faith in your love and the healing magic it can weave!

Special thanks to Abhishek Dixit, who very kindly let me use this beautiful snap for the poem! Thanks, Abhishek! :)